Bedroom blues

The world is full of suffering. It is also full of overcoming it.

Helen Keller


Not much sleep last night. Couldn't fall asleep...couldn't stay asleep...yep, one of those nights (no nightmares though.) The funny thing was that, even though I felt very relaxed last night, I had a funny feeling I might not sleep (I know, these feelings are not helpful, but they need to be acknowledged, even with the purpose of then letting them go.)

I think one of the problems last night was that I wasn't tired enough to go to bed. But I went anyway, because I felt I should since it was late. In hindsight, it might have been a better idea for me so stay up for another half an hour or so reading until I felt really sleepy. It's important for the bedroom to be a bedroom for me: somewhere to sleep, not somewhere to lie awake tossing and turning. So there it is, my own advice to myself: don't go to bed until you're completely ready for it.

In the meantime, I have to focus on today, not where I might have gone wrong last night. I find that if I have a lie down at lunchtime when Lily is sleeping (poor Maya is going to be watching another long episode of Dora the Explorer - not that she minds), I can normally face the afternoon a bit better. This morning I'm going to the creche - so it'll be good for me to have others to think about and to be able to kick start my day into something more positive than what it's been so far.