Growth

Every blade of grass has its angel that bends over it and whispers "grow, grow".

The Talmud


The quality (and quantity!) of my sleep has dramatically improved in the past month or so, particularly since doing the Reiki course. There's no doubt it. So I was surprised last night when I didn't sleep all night (or very, very little). We'd had friends for dinner, eaten quite late and it was, for us, a late night. But even so, I did what I normally do at the end of the night, winding down, writing in my sleep book and letting go of the day. But still, sleep didn't come.

I can't remember when or where I first read this quote that I've written above. It was years ago. But what I do remember is that it literally stopped me in my tracks. Something about it spoke to me and resonated deeply; that we all have the potential to be more than what we imagine we can be. We have both people and unseen forces rooting for us and encouraging us to go that step further, to reach that bit higher, to grow that bit taller. I really believe this - that we are 'held' by something greater than us. But something else walks alongside this belief, something that can't be separated. And that is that I must trust. Trust that I really am being held, trust in the bigger picture and trust in myself. One night of not sleeping is one night of not sleeping. But tonight is a new night and it is full of secrets and promise. And if I don't sleep again, I need to use this as an opportunity to grow into something better.