Feeling

We can make our mind so like still water that beings gather about us to see their own images, and so for a moment live a clearer, perhaps even fiercer life because of our quiet.

WB Yeats


I've been doing Reiki for several months now as well as a great deal of questioning and soul searching. There are some strange, unsettling memories coming up for me at the moment which I'm trying to figure out if they're connected to my insomnia. I think they probably are, but how to reconcile the two? Since a few days ago, in the evenings I've been taking myself off to my room for about an hour and using the silence to take the Reiki a step further and work on various 'chakras' (energy points) which are related to different emotions. My hope is that, little by little, I'll start to get inside these memories and 'feel' them again. Someone once said that 'to feel is to heal' and I'm sure there's a great deal of truth in that. We are all very good at boxing uncomfortable incidents up, putting lids on them and storing them away. We are taught to 'deal' with things; to 'be brave'. But if we don't allow ourselves to express the emotions, painful though this can be, these memories will only come back to haunt us in later years.