It took me four years to paint like Raphael but a lifetime to paint like a child.
Pablo Picasso
What a different place the world would be if we could all be as creative and open as children. Sometimes, I try to come up with 'creative' solutions to my insomnia, like writing through the frustration or absorbing myself in an activity which will help me to feel more positive. As for being open, I suppose this is where trying anything and everything to get to the bottom of my sleeplessness comes in.
I've been through so many ebbs and flows with this - sometimes thinking that this is a problem I have for life and I just need to get on with things and deal with it as best I can. But then at other times I think NO! I am a healthy, thirty-two year old woman and it's just not normal to go through nights on end without sleeping. The latter state of mind is where I'm at now. It's not normal and there is, I now firmly believe, a reason behind the anxiety which is preventing me from sleeping.
I may never be the best sleeper in the world but I do believe I can reach the stage where sleep becomes less of an issue and more of a normality. So here's my pledge to myself: To keep being creative, to keep being open to everything that is suggested to me. And let's see what happens. I think I've nearly cracked something.
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