What the night brings

On a day off, as it were, the last thing one wants to do is sit and obsess about possible causes and solutions. One wants to simply enjoy this blissful energy, or not even energy - just normality that has suddenly graced your life.

So that was my day yesterday: not being grumpy, taking Maya to school and discussing the birds and trees and flowers (and cars) on the way, feeling genuine excitement and joy at welcoming my mother and Peter, the travellers, back home after all this time and pouring love into the preparation of their welcome dinner.

And today? What will today bring, I wonder? Been up since 2 am - so tiredness, for sure. Here are my challenges which one day I hope to have a handle on:

How to live in the present moment whilst feeling so exhausted.

How to not long for the day to be over and wishing for all the promise of tomorrow but just to breathe the now in and out, in and out.

And How to say to myself when I wake in the night - Ah, I am awake - and then turn over and go back to sleep. Rather than say - Oh no, I am awake - and then turn over and take the hand of the long, lonely night.