One month on

Tomorrow I have another appointment with Guy Meadows at the Insomnia Clinic. So, almost exactly one month on and, without scrutinising myself too much, how do I feel that I'm faring?


Ok, am I sleeping better? 

In a word, no.

Are the floorboards still creaking each night with my restless footsteps?

No. (My bed and I are in the process of 're-bonding', though sometimes it still drives me crazy and I feel like kicking it!)

Am I still having lots of unhelpful insomnia-related thoughts during the day? (I'm a wreck....I can't cope...I used to have so much energy...Another crap day...I really need to sleep tonight...etc etc etc)

Yes...BUT...and this is a BIG 'but'...I am far, far more aware of these thoughts. Now, rather than allowing them to wallow like pigs in mud, I am checking them, no longer believing in these thoughts as gospel truth and trying to allow them to move along. Sometimes, they creep back again and again and again. But at least I can see this now and question if this thought is friend or foe.

So maybe I'm not sleeping better. But I'm 'thinking' better (ha!), ie there has been a small but perceptible shift in the crazy rollercoaster ride that is my internal dialogue. And in my book that is a great thing.