One step closer to setting sail to the oceans my creative writing website...and one step closer also to letting go of my need to write a blog about my insomnia? Maybe. Maybe not. My relationship to this blog is like the relationship a small child has to their parent, wanting independence but not letting go of their hand...just in case. I've had periods in the past since I started this blog of feeling strong enough for this independence, but have always come back to it. And that's fine. That's what it's here for.
The other day when a health visitor came to visit Benjamin and I, we somehow got on to the subject of my insomnia and it transpired that she has suffered from the same thing for years and years, ever since moving from Ghana to the UK. She told me that her teenage sons are insufferably noisy in the evenings and all she wants, in order to help her sleep, is some peace and quiet. I started to give her some advice and suggestions and then took a step back from the scene and was shocked by what I found: Me, giving advice on insomnia? Wonders will never cease.
And whilst I'm on the subject of advice, reading back over the insomnia article I wrote for the Green Parent magazine about a year ago, I'm afraid I now think no, no, no to a great deal of it. That's not it at all. I don't want to encourage people to try this and to try that to help them sleep. And I am NO expert. But what I do know is this: that the harder I try to sleep, the more it will elude me. The only way I can become a 'normal' sleeper again is to let go of my desire to control it.
On another note entirely, because I am a proud big sister, please do check out the new website of my sister and her husband, musical duo extraordinaire. And even better, go to one of their concert's - you'll be in for a treat!
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