Lessons

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don't go back to sleep.


Rumi


I thought the above quote was quite appropriate for me - that until I listen to and really hear what secrets the breeze has to tell me, I won't sleep soundly. In other words, until I take on board the important lessons this experience is gently trying to teach me, nothing will change. The ebb and flow of my sleeplessness will continue. I believe that, I really do.

Sometimes I feel like I'm passing through the door and gaining a greater insight into why I need to go through this. Other times, I feel as though I am standing on a distant shore, hollering for anybody to hear me. But that's probably just it - this isn't up to anybody else to 'hear' me or to help me. It's up to me. Only me.

Only I can turn this around.