Yesterday I had a day of pyscho-therapy galore with a session in the morning with a friend of Louisa's and then another previously arranged session in the afternoon with a Gestalt psychotherapist. They were both great in their own ways and it's been really interesting, now having spoken to four different psychotherapists (eeeek) how they all look at the issue from a different angle and bring their own approaches to it. The lady in the afternoon, for example, wanted me to think about where I'd stored all the tension from the past years in my physical body. It's not something I've ever given a great deal of thought to, but it felt really important and helpful to be looking at that.
Both the people I saw yesterday felt that it was very significant that I'd had three decent nights of sleep in a row since leaving Kenya. This doesn't mean that I suddenly renounce my life in Kenya or my responsibilities there (fear not my darling Andy, I'm not about to run away with the gypsies ;-)), but I think the combination of the relief of finally focussing on a very long-standing problem and having a rest from the guilt that has built up over ten years has something to do with three good nights sleep. Admittedly, I didn't have a great night last night but neither was it a disaster, so I'm feeling positive.
Today I had my MRI scan which was quite a bizarre experience - I was in there for 20 minutes and it was very noisy (I meant to ask what all that noise was afterwards but forgot - hope they didn't do something to my brain!) so I had to wear ear plugs and have something protecting my ears over the top of them. Anyway, I have a disc with my imaging, which I would have no idea what I was looking at, but it will also go to the neurologist for my follow appointment with him.
Tomorrow: bio-energetic screening!
Both the people I saw yesterday felt that it was very significant that I'd had three decent nights of sleep in a row since leaving Kenya. This doesn't mean that I suddenly renounce my life in Kenya or my responsibilities there (fear not my darling Andy, I'm not about to run away with the gypsies ;-)), but I think the combination of the relief of finally focussing on a very long-standing problem and having a rest from the guilt that has built up over ten years has something to do with three good nights sleep. Admittedly, I didn't have a great night last night but neither was it a disaster, so I'm feeling positive.
Today I had my MRI scan which was quite a bizarre experience - I was in there for 20 minutes and it was very noisy (I meant to ask what all that noise was afterwards but forgot - hope they didn't do something to my brain!) so I had to wear ear plugs and have something protecting my ears over the top of them. Anyway, I have a disc with my imaging, which I would have no idea what I was looking at, but it will also go to the neurologist for my follow appointment with him.
Tomorrow: bio-energetic screening!
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